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deserting @ 2008-11-01T17:44:00

2008-11-02T00:48:26Z

With the money from her accident
She bought herself a mobile home
So at least she could get some enjoyment
Out of being alone
No one could say that she was left up on the shelf
Its you and me against the world kid she mumbled to herself

deserting @ 2006-10-18T00:01:00

2006-10-18T07:01:22Z

i fed a goat!

deserting @ 2006-10-16T19:35:00

2006-10-17T02:35:50Z

it would be 22ly tubular if i could stop breaking out or find a solution that would zap away my zits!

deserting @ 2006-10-09T17:32:00

2006-10-10T00:33:21Z

i'm severly addicted to cheeseburgers as of lately and i'm in love with in &out. i used to h8 red meat, idk what's going on! it's too wild, 22222 wild. oh&it rained on sunday =- o

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2006-10-04T01:52:37Z

my new addiction! :) that &riding the metro. i just want to ride the metro all day long.

also, whenever i'm driving i'm definitely laughing/smiling the whole time. i think it's the most amusing thing, ever.. which probably isn't how i should see it.

deserting @ 2006-09-21T14:15:00

2006-09-21T21:16:29Z

I passed my permit test! : )

=- o

2006-08-29T07:33:53Z

l o v e.

life has been good to me, lately.
i hope it stays this way!

deserting @ 2006-08-16T17:48:00

2006-08-17T00:48:18Z

i am an asshole.

deserting @ 2005-12-29T02:13:00

2005-12-29T10:12:46Z

lily got her license today.
we spent tonight going to rocky cola cafe (worst place EVER), jack & the box, savon & driving aimlessly around for an open grocery store with no luck. now, i doubt i'll ever be home & i'll always be with her. AND i like that considering we're raging lesbians with AIDS.

this week seems like it's going incredibly slow.

deserting @ 2005-12-13T00:15:00

2005-12-13T08:14:55Z

this weekend was pretty amazing minus last night but i won't get into that. i saw narnia the other night and it was just full of incest & beastality. now i have a haggard migrane & i'm greasy as fuck.

deserting @ 2005-12-06T01:04:00

2005-12-06T09:06:01Z

i fucking love my best friend and when we laugh for 4 &1/2 hrs.

chill out, super market slut

2005-12-05T11:05:14Z

i worked 7hrs on saturday & had an amazing weekend.

deserting @ 2005-12-02T03:03:00

2005-12-02T11:03:43Z

i love eating frosted mini wheats at ungodly hours of the night/morning.

deserting @ 2005-11-11T23:01:00

2005-11-12T07:00:54Z

i love that 70's show.

deserting @ 2005-11-05T20:05:00

2005-11-06T04:05:47Z

i think it's ridiculous that in 4 months, i'm going to be 19 but i'll always feel 12.
oh & i also find it ridiculous that my grandpa asked ME (of all people) if i was aneroxic.

deserting @ 2005-11-01T03:45:00

2005-11-01T11:43:17Z

most of the time, i only think people like others to feel less lonely.
& lately, i've been really disgusted with myself.

deserting @ 2005-10-27T16:28:00

2005-10-27T23:24:18Z

i haven't felt this awful in a very long time.

deserting @ 2005-10-22T23:17:00

2005-10-23T06:13:00Z

i miss you.

deserting @ 2005-10-19T02:09:00

2005-10-19T09:04:00Z

i love spending time with lily&mark and both of them together.. EVEN BETTER!
too bad i gained about 5lbs tonight. fucking heffalump &shit.

i love when guys feed girls the same lines over&over.
it kind of loses its touch ..don't you think?

deserting @ 2005-10-14T18:03:00

2005-10-15T01:03:04Z

one of my biggest pet peeves is wasting my time. i feel like i'm wasting time on people an awful lot of the time.

WELL, atleast i get to see my best friend for the weekend! which means i'll be in a good mood AND maybe, COOOOOOOOKIES. i love cookies.

deserting @ 2005-10-04T04:15:00

2005-10-04T11:16:36Z

i hate elevators but i love my best friend.
i really want IHOP.

wednesday ..FREAKN VERONICA MARS!!!!!!!

deserting @ 2005-10-02T06:37:00

2005-10-02T13:34:36Z

here's to a(n) ~~good~~amazing october!
i hope i get to see my best friend more because i haven't seen her much lately & it really bums me out. i know we haven't been talking/hanging out as much as we usually do but i love you more than anyone/anything in this world/universe. seriously, i'd be lost without you.

this operation's been abandoned once again

2005-09-27T23:54:34Z

i don't need excuses.
i hope you're okay.
i really hate worrying but it's as if it's my job to do so.

i'm going to Islands with my best friend & i don't even know how long it's been since we've done that & i miss it and i miss her. andddddd i love her more than i loved that cookie dessert thing we ate months ago that was the best dessert i've ever had in my life (so far).

Relax your body parts and take the path less marked

2005-09-26T23:48:08Z

you're just like the rest of them.

&in other news;
i miss the monterey bay aquarium, i miss my best friend a lot, i hate having my period, guys are dickbags, i want ice cold water & a shower because i'm sweating like a motherfucker from riding my bike, i saw the cutest guy but i looked shitty (not that i care because i don't believe in physical contact with the opposite sex anymore, never, ever), i'm watching the live shark cam because my best friend is amazing, i love my kitty more than half the people i know minus family/bff, i need to get over my fear of driving so i can get my cute green element, i need to figure out what i want to do with my life because i really thought i wanted to go into marine biology/zoology but i also really want to do something that has to do with free clinics, i really want to travel the world mainly italy, norway, and australia, i really wish more people seemed genuine and unasshole-y, i'm proud of myself for eating better & working out again, i hate myself for putting myself through these situations i tend to get in & it's such bullshit, i really want a banana popsicle, every night before i go to bed i ask myself if i miss anyone (seriously, i do this & I DON'T KNOW WHY) and there's always SOMEONE i miss, hardly anyone knows me so i get really upset when people ask me what's wrong like they're absolutely sure that something is wrong WHEN usually it's me just not wanting to talk to that person, i'm really superstitious,so, i REALLY hate when people do chain letters because i have to do them (it's ridiculous i know), i really wish i could fix my sleeping schedule because going to bed at 4am just isn't cutting it & i hate it, i really love the feeling when sleeplessness comes over you and you can feel it go through your body & you know right then you're going to fall asleep in 5minutes or less, i'm a really paranoid person (i've had my gpa wake up at 5am in the morning because i hear things in my backyard and make him go search & look and i won't go to bed till he's sure no ones / nothings in my backyard), sometimes i hold back from saying what i really want because i don't want to come off as harsh/mean to people i actually care about and than i get mad at myself because i didn't say it but when it's people that are just there & they don't mean that much to me i can be a total bitch and not have any remorse for it what so ever, i love getting my period because it gives me an excuse to be a bitch & i love it (yes, i'm serious), i hate taking showers i think they're a waste of time, sometimes being fat sounds really appealing and i want to weigh like 300lbs just so i can eat everything/as much as i want possible to get to 300lbs, everyone i've ever talked to has told me i'm weird which I'M AWARE of, anyways, i really hate when people call other people fat JUST to make fun of them -- it ticks me off beyond belief (my grandma does it all the time and it's so aggravating; i'm pretty sure they're aware of it and it's NOT your problem), i really hate the whole "i'm better/more awesome than you" attitude people have lately -- it's sickening, i absolutely hate jeans (i rather wear sweats which i do), i live in tee shirts & boy cut undies (it's all i wear around the house and i prefer to be in just those than ANYTHING), i used to ride horses, bowl, and golf when i was younger than i got fat&lazy, i never really liked myself till i left highschool 2nd semester of jr year, i think i'm a pretty like-able person, i love my personality minus some tidbits, i used to weigh 156 but i started to hate myself and started to work out and eat better and now i weigh 130 & i'm proud of what i've done which is why i can say how much i weigh & not feel bad about it because i've been worse, i'm a lot more confident in myself than i was years ago, i used to be obsessed with make up but now i don't care to wear as much & i don't care to impress people as much either what's the point? i really think that the only opinion of you that matters is yourself, family & your loved ones BUT your's is all that TRULY matters, i get sick of music easily to the point where i can't stand my favorite songs, my favorite singer in the whole entire world is otis redding &it really depresses me that he had to pass away so early in his life, i love famous quotes (i look them up all the time & i read them from my mom's books), i'm really picky about the people i spend my time on, i forgive people who make ridiculous decisions when i truly in my heart care about them but if i don't than i drop them like hat, i'm really scared of turning 19 because that seems old & adult-y to me and i don't feel like i'm an adult, infact, i feel like i'm 14-16 most of the time (i really don't understand why), i don't think there's been a time where i've actually felt my age in awhile, i pee more than anyone i know and i don't even have a bladder infection, whenever i get really sick or something starts to hurt i look it up on google & than get all paranoid that i have cancer, ulcers, or tumors or something AND than i get all nervous &panic-y, i always have a feeling of anxiousness.

deserting @ 2005-09-22T18:41:00

2005-09-23T01:40:32Z

"If your eyes are blinded with your worries,
you cannot see the beauty of the sunset"